Still Hopeful ..
The day I shared my last blog was the day we were presented with another situation. The agency called and told us about a little 3.5 week old Hispanic boy who was needing an immediate pick up. We were filled with hope again - Could this be it?
The mother liked us and was looking over our profile to finalise her decision. I told her we could be there tomorrow if she needed us and the agency continued to work overtime to help make this match possible. They were doing their best to support the mother as they had been for weeks now. We see a picture of him and hear some of his story, we are hopeful.
Fast forward and 24 hours later we got the call “I don’t know how to tell you this, she was scamming, I’m so sorry!”
Our hearts were disappointed but also at peace. These moments suck! Its hard and sometimes I just want to scream a little but yet, God continues to show me an incredible amount of peace in our “not yet’s”.
We pray for her and close that situation down. We thank God for mother and son and ask Him to give them the life they dream of. Protect them and provide for them Father - Let them know and feel you like never before!
This journey of adoption is so unique, I truly can’t compare it to anything else I’ve walked through. It’s been my greatest walk of faith and my biggest journey of hope. No two experiences are the same. You never know what to expect and you don’t always get the news you are praying for, but we trust God. We feel His presence in all we do and we know He’s covering us in His wings of protection!
I guess what I am trying to say is; Do you ever enter into a season with an expectation but it turns out to be much different to what you had pictured?
That’s been this season for us and as I sit here in our home, rocking my youngest to sleep and I feel so thankful that its not up to me to worry or feel frightened of the unknown. My job is to trust God. Trust that He knows more than me and to trust that he has a reason for each move He has us take.
Today and everyday I choose to believe that His ways are higher than my ways and His thoughts are higher than my thoughts. That His plan for my life is so much grater than I could ever dream of and the day we hold the baby God has promised to us in our arms, will be the day it all makes sense.
My prayer is that you too, would know God is a promise keeper. That for those dreams and journeys He has you on, you would feel Him holding you up and walking with you through it all. When we call upon His name, He answers.
I don’t ever want to give up on this promise I’m walking through and I pray you never give up on yours!
Psalm 32:8
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.
He is with us always.
